Tripping

D had a date last night that went very well. As I was going to bed last night, I knew it was going good for him since he hadn't called me like he said he would or gone back online. I was a little worried about being alone last night, in case I would trip out about it, but I was alone and was perfectly fine.

I didn't feel weird about it until I talked to him when he called this morning and then I knew for sure how the evening turned out, but I was having a bad day for other reasons. Like, I was freezing my ass off at work because the power was out.

D's really busy at work and talking about not coming home this weekend or coming home for a shorter duration. He wants me to go there, but what am I going to do while it's raining out and he's working. I'm still in hibernation mode.

I was also tripping because I had a dream last night about Tristan. I've had several dreams about him in the past few weeks so have been thinking about him a lot. Last night he was having a solo art exhibit at a gallery/bookstore/library. His art was cartoony illustrations of scary/cute monsters. They had a book of his drawings that I looked through and purchased. He and I got a chance to talk a little and I realized how much I miss him and still love him.

The last dream of him that I remember was a couple weeks ago and I dreamt I was at a party at someone's house. I went outside to smoke a cigarette (I haven't smoked a cigarette for about 7 years) and Tristan walked up. We talked only briefly and it was pretty obvious that he still hadn't forgiven me.

I really want to see him.

I also want D to come home this weekend and I want R to come over right now. I'm hungry.

Posted by Ari at 18:15:09