Sick But Getting Better

I've had three colds in the past month, this one has been the worst: runny nose, stuffy head, tired but can't sleep well. I'm feeling better but asked for the entire week off to recover. I don't think I've been giving myself enough time for that. Or for me in general.

The past two nights I've woken up around 3:30am and couldn't get back to sleep. I've been reading a lot of non-fiction: Pronoia, Song of the Avadhut, The Ethical Slut, among others.

Especially good for me is Pronoia...

I've been trying to think that way for years, but it's difficult to break through countless generations of cynical family patterns.

It's written by Rob Brezsny, the only astrologer I'll ever listen to.

R's car was broken for a couple weeks. I spent a lot of time driving him around and he often has to be places for work at 5am. Other than the time it took away from doing other things, it was fun. He's usually pretty fun to be around.

D and I went out with Joan and her husband. She's the girl I met last summer after she contacted me through myspace. I've hung out with her a few times now. I love being around girls I can feel girly and creative with. If I ever get well enough, I want to have some girls over for arts and crafts. Since Joan has to take immune-suppressant meds (for heart/lung transplant), being around her while I'm not 100% well is out of the question.

Posted by Ari at 13:46:30